I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad! I hope you have someone with whom you can share your pain and who will just hug you when you need to be held.
Sending you a big mental hug.
Daryl
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I'm sorry Karin. I don't know what to say as words seem so empty and hollow.
I think the passing of time helps but you never 'get over it'. I think they are in your heart forever.
I hope you can soon start thinking about your POA. It won't be replacing your precious boys but hopefully you'll be blessed with a little brother/sister for them.
Seeing a pschychologist helped me so much. Give yourself time to grieve fully.....I think it can take so much longer than we expect it to.
Thinking of you!
Jemma xxx
I'm so sorry you are feeling so sad! I hope you have someone with whom you can share your pain and who will just hug you when you need to be held.
Sending you a big mental hug.
Daryl
Karin I'm so sorry you feel sad. But you'll get days you want to cry and it will happen in the future also. But if you want to cry.. cry. I normally feel better after I've cried. A miscarriage is not something you'll forget you learn to live with it.
TTC: 4years
Me : Fine
DH : Fine
1xhysteroscopy to remove Uterine septum (July 2008)
5 x miscarriages :
1 natural BFP
8weeks Dec 2005 (Blighted ovum)
2 natural BFP
14weeks July 2006 (Membranes raptured)
3 natural BFP
6weeks Feb 2008 (No heartbeat)
4 natural BFP
9weeks June 2008 (Blighted ovum)
5 natural BFP
18weeks Jan 2009 (Incompetent cervix)
6 natural BFP
18weeks Nov 2009 (Membranes captured)
I am thinking about you in this time, and praying that God's peace & love surround you & comfort you!
Cheza
ME - 35 [egg quality an issue]
DH - 37 [all fine]
FS - [Dr.V @ VL]
Mileage
TTC = 3 years
1 x HSG [all fine] - 1 x Laparotomy Dec 2008 [8 fibroids removed] - 1 x D&C - 2 x Hysteroscopy
History TTC
2008
TOO many Timed Cycles - ALL BFN
2009
[1 x IVF #1 - BFP(no heart beats @ 6½ wks)] - [3 x Timed & Triggered Cycles - ALL BFN] - [1 x FET #1 - BFN]
2010
year of contemplation
POA: IVF #2 March 2011
Karin
I don't know what to say to you to make you feel any better. Maybe because I was never in your position before, maybe knowing through my IVF failures that there is not much that will make it better anyway and knowing that there is not answers to ones questions of why me, why this.
All I want to say to you, is that I am so terrible sorry for you pain and loss. I will keep you in my prayers and will ask God to be with you every step of this journey to heal again and to carry you where you can't walk any further.
Please, if you did not already, consider going for counselling to make sure you do mourne the loss of your two little boys.
I am thinking of you.
Me: 28
Unregular cycles. Nothing else identified.
DH: 42
Low sperm count due to anti-rejection meds (had kidney transplant)
TTC: 2 years and 2 months
4 x timed cycles, All BFN's
1x IUI , BFN
1st ICSI IVF February 2009, BFN
Change to new FS
2nd ICSI IVF October 2009, BFN
3rd ICSI IVF February 2009, BFN
POA: Accepting my fate and close the chapter
H&F Buddy: sliedema
Dr P @ Kloof
Hello Karin,
I haven't been on the forum for a long time and just wanted to let you know that I thought of you the whole of my December holiday and even up to now. I even went to your recent posts quickly last week just to see how you were doing.
I'm so sorry for what you have had to go through. I wish there were words that can make you feel better. Just know that I'm constantly thinking about you and that you are always in my prayers.
Love,
Karin
Me : 35
DH : 39
TTC : 5 years
Me : Endo II
DH : All fine with Glucophage
5 x IUI's - All BFN
IVF #1 - BFP but chemical
IVF #2 - BFP but chemical
FET #1 - BFN
IVF #3 - BFN
FET #2 - BFN
IVF #4 - BFP
1st Beta 28 July 2009 : 12dp3dt : 427
2nd Beta 30 July 2009 : 14dp3dt : 825
3rd Beta 1 August 2009 : 16dp3dt : 1724
4th Beta 3 August 2009 : 18dp3dt : 3330
1st Scan : 20 August 2009 : 1 perfect heartbeat
FS : Dr V @ VL
EDD : 7 April 2010
It's a girl
Karin,
Seems my post got lost last week.
I am very sorry you are going through this pain and are so sad. I know the magniture of your pain, but unfortunately its something only time can heal. Grieving is so difficult, cause when you say I am OK, then here comes all this pain back to stab you in the heart.
Karin, please try and see a therapist. I know he/she can not take the pain away, but they will help in getting past certain questions you cannot answer on your own, and help you process your thoughts.
Other than that, try and take it easy om yourself. You have been to hell and back with the loss of your babies. Dont forget, I am here for you should you want to talk to someone.
xx
Maria
*Me: 30 *DH: 34
*TTC since 2003
*1st IVF/ICSI - M/Cat 17w2d (21Nov07) (incompetent cervix) Mary
*2nd IVF/ICSI - M/Cat 23w(15Aug08) (septic m/c) Ioanna Maria
*3rd IVF/ICSI - cycle cancelled due to bleeding
* FET - BFP11/06 Hcg=206 11dp5dt
* Will be seeing a high risk gyne througout this pregnancy.
http://mariae-ibelieveinangels.blogspot.com
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